Yesterday I joined #Trust30, an “online initiative and 30-day writing challenge that encourages you to look within and trust yourself.” It’s based on Self-Reliance by Ralph Waldo Emerson. Since that is my fraggin’ manifesto, I was compelled (even though I’m late to the party, as usual).
Today’s prompt from Corbett Barr is “What would you say to the person you were five years ago? What will you say to the person you’ll be in five years?”
Dear Christine, 2006:
I am so proud of you. You are incredibly capable, yet you’ve taken on so much. Day job, moonlighting web design to pay for the 1927 farm, the gut rehab of house and barn, raising your daughter, active community.
It’s so beautiful here: the land, the spring of fresh water, the canal and the snow high on the mountains beyond. You have chosen well. Still, the cost to you is high.
As you toil, lift your head. Notice the beauty of this life and the people that you share it with. Savor the potluck dinners, the gatherings out by the fire. Let this joy sink into your weary bones. Remember that big things take big time. Be patient. Please keep hold of the thread of what matters most. Don’t let go.
But you will let this go: the attention to your spirit, to your path as a woman of wisdom, a writer and creator. Later, tears will flow when you remember what you had, what you dreamed, and what you forgot. And this will be your remembering. It will come round again.
Dear Christine, 2016:
I am so very proud of you. You created the most gorgeous, uniquely YOU way to be in the world & put food on the table. How glorious your mission: singing, drawing & storytelling for those who crave depth & meaning in times of change.
It took longer than you imagined, but everything does. How valuable this place! For learning, gettin’ wild, growing healthy food, sharing the water.
You shifted from an invincible, do-it-all-alone, headstrong, solo artist into a small community of creative workers. You move through the inevitable conflicts with humor and grace. You’re part of a true “we” – a stronger container, a boat to ride out the storms of change. The winds take so much from so many. So many look to you for guidance and inspiration. Although you have doubts, you help them ride the storm. You are needed, my dear. Please take time to repair and renew.
How beautifully you navigate the changes! Noticing both the suffering and the joy and yet holding the center. May you continue to deepen your attunement to me, the source of spark and wisdom inside you, and celebrate the myriad ways we are reflected in others and in the outer world.
What would you say to yourself in 2006? in 2016?
Drop yourself a line and post it here. I’d love to see it!